Uuummmmm.......well, my dad is still eatin puree food....The nurse said that he can have soda...and it might actually be a good idea, because of the calories.....to help him gain some weight...I'm scared that one day I'll get that   phone call.....I'm not sure what will happen to my mom if that happens........My friend wants to go with me to see him today...but we can't stay too long because she's got plans....(computers are no good at showing sarcasm)....Her mom thinks that my dad is in this condition because of drinking.....It didn't directly cause it but it didn't help either.....so fucking stupid...The doctor said that anything could have caused it...FUCK!!!!  It's an adema in the spinal cord caused from pressure in the spinal column that's fucked him up....fuckin shit.....  That's all I have to say right now...PMS doesn't exactly help either...soooo   yeah....bye.....

"you never know what you've got 'til it's gone"

Okay...my sister calls me right after work last saturday night..."Dad's going back to the hospital....he's having stomach bleeding"....."okay I'll go see him tommarrow"....two hours later..."Dad's having a heart attack and we want you up here"....   Then he needed a heart cathader, but he refused and his stomach started bleeding again  (they think he's got an ulcer)  .........Now the stomach bleeding has finally stopped and they've moved him out of the bsmt..(SICU)....to the fifth floor.....

I need to start paying $200/mo...Joe and I will be paying $500 both of us together.....

Okay, update.....we're all gonna stay here for another month......sell shit...I'm in charge of  finding the new place 'cuz I did so good last time....we  need a cheaper place...I'm trying to convince my dad to go to a rehab center to get better... that's about it right now....

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Well, now.... we have to move again.  Angel(Joe's sister),  is to get an apartment with their mom  and Joe is supposed to move in with his friend to stay in school  and not pay a cent of rent.  So I'm to find my own place.  I did the math and I think I would starve, can't move in with my mom.  Jennifer invited me to stay with her we'd both pay $18o.50/mo. rent and split the electric and food and other shit.   I want pay for the food.  I'll  stay with Joe just hardley see him.  and this is because their mom and her boyfriend got in a big fight and rent is almost due.  They're not going to live together anymore.  

"Fight for what you love"

Okay. Those godamn medical professionals don't know what the fuck they're doing..  They put Dad in a rehab center for around the clock care and for physical therapy not even a week after his surgery and now he's in more pain 'cause  they pushed him to fast.  I was using a tube to suck mucus out of his throat, cause he's so helpless, he's spitting on himself.  The doctor said it'd be a miracle if he ever walks again.